Today, I woke up and I just quietly feel the emotional atmosphere of my creativity shift. I am still in the midst of unraveling what this feeling is. 

It feels lighter - a lot lighter. It feels completely and entirely new. My Creative Home that I have built feels brand new. 

Lately, the energy inside of my Creative Home has been deeply intense and this created an intense emotional atmosphere around my creativity on a day to day basis. Over the past weeks, I have had several ideas of the clarity, the healing that I wanted to create in my writing. More than ideas - they are energies that matter a great deal to my heart on many levels. 

But I also had to acknowledge that these energies no longer felt natural to me. And maybe, just maybe, this time, I experienced this clarity, this healing in ways where writing was not a necessary medium to express it; to bring it to life. 

Maybe, I lived it - allowing it to come to life inside of my heart; Maybe I lived it - allowing it to come to life in my connections in my day to day life. 

I wanted to write about … I wanted to tell you about all the ways that I have come to know myself on a Soul level. I wanted to tell you about all the ways I have grown as a human being and what it is like experiencing that growth. I wanted to tell you about how my entire relationship with and perspective of the divine masculine has shifted in Ways that I could not anticipate and yet powerfully found its way into my heart. I wanted to tell you how destined it felt to come to this moment - to feel all of this and how it feels like a story that has been unfolding inside of my heart throughout my entire life. 

I wanted to tell you all the ways I feel connected to my divine feminine energy and how it’s made me feel more real, more connected, more at Home within myself. I wanted to tell you all the ways I hear Her Freedom speak louder to me and Her Confinements find their way out. 

I wanted to tell you how suddenly in one moment this week - I closed my Eyes and saw all conflicts in my Heart resolving themselves by finally giving themselves the peace that they deserve. I wanted to tell you this because it came upon me so unexpectedly and changed me, my heart forever. I wanted to tell you how it felt like all the pieces of my heart finally found their freedom of peace; and walked towards each other for a final embrace that would permanently put it all back together … cementing a new era of peace within my being.

I wanted to tell you how I found peace within myself and it keeps telling me of all the ways that it is changing me moment to moment. It feels like I have been in the Arms of Life constantly tugging at it; fighting with it; frustrated with it and Now, my Heart has just fallen into Its Embrace; into its innate goodness - allowing ItSelf to be nourished and nurtured by it. 

I wanted to tell you all of these things … and maybe in some Ways I have … and maybe at some point I will tell you more but I think I have said all that I wanted to say, for now. 

Experienced by - Chelsea Avasa Khan