As I sit here now sipping on my iced coffee, I feel a sense of peace and togetherness within myself.

I feel myself being nourished and replenished in these quiet moments and there is part of me that is anticipating a lot of things that I have been feeling within my Heart these past couple of days.

I feel emotionally raw - in a way, that I have felt my entire life and yet I am seeing it in an entirely new light. It is being shown to me in an entirely new light.

See, some time ago, I realized something significant - that things that you feel uniquely within yourself; differently within yourself - it is an integral part of who you are. The thing is though you can sometimes mistake it for something that needs to be fixed; something that needs to be worked on or worked through.

For a long time, I thought the power that I felt within my Heart Space was something that I needed to 'get rid of' - not realizing that I was feeling the sheer intensity of the Soul and Source of who I am alive in me. But in my focus upon, trying to figure out what it was - the clarity unraveled within me. Ultimately allowing me to acknowledge and recognize who I am; embody it and live from that unique and beautiful energy of who I am.

I came to this clarity a couple years ago but as is the mysteries of life and its unique timing to reveal itself - a new clarity from that story has unfolded within me this week. This emotional rawness that I feel stems from that Power within my Heart Space.

The emotional rawness that I feel stems from that Power within my Heart Space.
It amazes me that something that is so intimately a part of who I am ... an energy that is the lens through which I experience life - I am seeing it in its clarity just now.

It is an emotional rawness that maybe requires soothing, but moreso, it needs to be experienced, to be felt in its realness.

It always felt 'personal' but now it feels to be a unique trait in the Ways that I perceive Energy - very intimately connected with the heartbeat of Life.

It feels very cold sometimes and yet the moment I allow myself to settle into it and experience it fully - it feels like it is no longer stifling; it is breathing more freely.
I think part of me hesitates sometimes, because in feeling this, I feel this endless exhaustion that there's another thing that's wrong that needs to be fixed.

But that isn't quite the way it is. It's not endlessly exhausting. It's not exhausting. It's real and pure in the ways it presents itself inside of my heart - the coldness of life; the harshness of life; the loneliness of life; the way the heart of life feels all of this. Just experiencing it, allows me to feel more intimately connected to Life and just experiencing it - frees it; just experiencing it - allows the heart of life to feel its warmth once more; to feels its tenderness once more; to feel its sense of belonging and connectedness once more.

Maybe it is a little exhausting ... to feel something that is unlike my nature so rawly experiencing itself inside of my heart. It is a little scary ... because sometimes these energies consume my World and I wait for the day when the scales tip completely. When the scales tip completely, and my World is consumed with an effortless Warmth, a familiar Tenderness that I've grown accustomed too; and an uninterrupted sense of belonging and connectedness .... where my World becomes my Home.

I feel though that it is significant for me to acknowledge that my Energy is streaming powerfully and gently - creating significant changes with an ease and effortlessness; making significant Strides in its every step forward ... covering significant ground illuminating the Heart of the Absolute; the Heart of Humanity; the Heart of Life ... and the Heart of Chelsea.

In the past 3 or 4 years, I've had to actively focus a lot - consciously receiving and interacting with new thought streams; new energies unraveling itself inside of my heart; constantly and consistently moving forward moment to moment as I received more energy. It was an experience that consumed me entirely and I thoroughly gave myself to all of it - needless to say, it is a significant experience in my Life.

Ultimately, I curated an Experience that would allow me to receive and nurture all these unique and powerfull energies. I oversaw the Entire Experience - holding the Hands of the Absolute; at times Holding the Hands of my Soul; and at times, in the depth of my Innate Powers - paving the path ahead myself and walking it.

Now ... now the experience has changed significantly. It feels a lot less all consuming and I gather that it is because the energies are present here and now - grounded; flowing naturally and creating a mound of beautiful things everyday - healing, connection, love, peace, freedom, clarity, understanding, reconciliation, truth, realness. It's showing me more of more of itself everyday and I am seeing the depths of my creations come to life in every moment of every day.

Ultimately, it feels like it has stripped me of focusing, of aligning, of surrendering and its teaching me to just experience it now - to just purely experience it here and now.

Experienced by - Chelsea Avasa Khan