Painting by - Chelsea Avasa Khan

Love’s Return

In the Darkness,

She flowed the Full Forces of Her Innate Power

A Goddess effortlessly determined to STAND in HER TRUTH;

A Goddess exhausted by the relentless Darkness but HELD UP by the Solidity of Her Presence and all that the Goddess’ PRESENCE embodies

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The aftermath left Her Heart shaken up … on edge … the LOVE that once LIVED effortlessly within Her seemed to be a distant memory to HER … something precious that was once HERS but now, its PRESENCE so FAINT.

LOVE took its time with HER - everyday … LOVE showed up in small increments … but small increments of LOVE, INFINITE - potent and concentrated in its tiny doses; She would resist and welcome it in the same breath; embrace it wholly and push it away in one movement;

She was at EASE in the Sense that LOVE took such care of Her, not to overwhelm HER with Its Presence; but to be quietly present with Her. In those quiet moments of the day where She felt calm and connected to HerSelf - Love poured ItSelf into Her. Love poured ItSelf in Her and the Goddess smiled.

The Goddess smiled and Love, smiled because in the Goddess’ Darkness - her smile became an unfamiliar thing. But as Love found its Way back into Her Bones - Love made Her Smile, again. She devoured the Darkness - made it Her Terrains but the aftermath - She felt haunted by it. 

As the Goddess lit the Flames of Her Truth once more; experienced Her Absolute tending to all levels of Her Being; everyday - the experience of the Darkness still lived within Her. Till one day, Her Heart told Her she was ready to let go of it; to move on from it. 

& She understood that Love delivering ItSelf unto Her in those small, daily increments was integral in letting go of Her Darkness and learning to Hold Love’s Hand again - to Trust its grip, again!

See, the Goddess was in a great haste to return Home; to return to Love, but when the Lights were turned off - and She lost sight of Her Love (the Love of the Absolute; of the Divine that belonged to Her) - that was the darkest of the Darkest for Her. Now, the thing that petrified Her was losing it again; of losing sight of that Love, again. It PETRIFIED her - losing sight of it. 

See, She’s turning the Lights back on and Love is there, it’s RIGHT THERE, everyday … She knows that She can turn those Lights Off … She knows that She can turn those Lights back on. It’s all still there - lights on/ lights off - whether She can SEE it or not; the REALITY of It is just that it is the REALITY that it is always there … the Illusion is that it disappears!

The Goddess understands the DEPTH of Her Experience. Within every layer of Her Being; Every Layer of Her Being KNOWS NOW that LIGHTS ON/ LIGHTS OFF - The Absolute IS; She Is. She lives NOW with the SOLIDITY of HER KNOWING embedded into the FABRIC OF HER EXISTENCE ; a JEWEL borne of Her EXPERIENCES; of her experience-ing of Her Darkness. A JEWEL adorning Her Soul - like a Badge of Honor bestowed unto Her by Her Absolute!

Lights On,

Lights Off,

The Absolute IS

She IS!

Experienced by - Chelsea Avasa Khan