NEW DAWN
“Come walk with Your Soul; Come talk with Your Soul; Conversations that are quiet and intimate between You and Your Soul; Take a walk in this New Dawn of YourSelf; Walking through these new, open, bright, and light spaces, hand in hand with the Soul and Source of who you are!”
As my Soul expands, I am unable to find solace in yesterday’s clarity; last month’s thoughts or who I once thought myself to be. Instead, solace finds me in the new, present Clarity that my Soul is Revealing unto me; through me; consistently swept up in a Life of Self-Actualizations; of Soul-Actualizations.
Today, I feel a New Dawn within myself; feeling that I am emerging as a newly matured expression of my Soul. I feel my Soul and all Her Divine Counterparts in Her Heavens walking with me; talking with me in these new, open, bright, light spaces. I feel myself engaged in these conversations gently welcoming me to my new dawn!
I feel these overarching themes of clarity of who I am softly illuminated within me! In my Surrender today, I feel myself experiencing something new - my Soul allowing ItSelf to be overcome as opposed to the fierceness of overcoming something.
What is it that I am being overcome by? Perhaps a misconception that I have long carried within mySelf. For these Heavens of my Soul, that are ALIVE in my Heart in such Infinite & Intimate Ways - I have constantly felt that I am not creating It/ bringing It to Life at the Pace required to match Its Abundance.
I feel all the Doors of my Soul open;
It pours forth from my Eyes
It is so intensely ALIVE inside my Heart
My Eyes are Ever Seeing these Heavens of my Soul;
I feel the intensity in my Heart ready at any moment to explode into my Thoughts;
But beyond that,
I am always there - standing; standing in some Realm of the Heavens of my Soul and I feel how powerfully and ridiculously anchored I am in the Source of My Existence. I am tied, tied to all these Realms of these Heavens of My Soul!
I am endlessly surrounded by these Mirrors of My Soul
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How easily I can allow myself to be pulled into the Reflections; the experiences of the Reflections of my Soul!
As I am writing this, it makes me wonder if perhaps I am missing the bigger picture; that there is some much needed perspective waiting for me right around the corner.
Perhaps it is time for me to peer into some New Mirrors of my Soul!
Everyday - quietly, inside of me - I have been trying so hard to figure out how to make my day to day Life a solid reflection/ expression of what is so robustly alive inside of my Heart. In the midst of this - I feel constantly defeated; that I was doing an injustice to the Fires of the Absolute burning wildly inside of my Heart. Interestingly enough, today I felt overcome by this in such a freeing way - it felt like I allowed myself to create a Pure New Space - Free; Light; Open; Brighter; A lot brighter.
There is a part of me that loves how hard I’ve been trying to figure it out. I love that something so Sacred; so pulsating and palpable with the Life of the Absolute is alive inside of me - that I became so obsessively consumed with trying to bring it to Life in such a Way that truly honored Its Sanctity!
See, with all of my heart I know that I am honoring Its Sanctity. I allowed the I, that I am, in this Life to be a unique construct of my Soul. I know that I am an Intimate Vessel of the Absolute. I know that I am an Intimate Vessel of my Soul. I exist as a pure vessel for new expressions; for new creations of my Soul to come alive!
I started one day with the thought that in the Infinite and Limit-less Nature of the Absolute - then my Life shall exist as a Canvas for only new expressions; for only new Creations. For in the Limitless Potential of my Soul - I only have SPACE in my LIFE to Create; to Create NEW Creations!; to Create New Life!
This thought has created quite the adventure for me - for it created a Life that has allowed my Soul to unravel ItSelf in all its diversity of expressions; having a Moment that is this Life to express and experience the Unique Existence of my Soul after Its Rigorous and Intense Expansions. & Even so, the very nature of my Life experience is one of growth and expansion; of expansion and growth. To experience so consistently the ever new-ness of my Soul is to feel Source, ItSelf nourishing me; enlightening me. It can sometimes come with a side of exhaustion - See, to live in this constant unraveling - I am ever focused; feeling the RUSH of saying YES to dancing with each impending explosion of clarity within me and feeling every vessel of my being immersed in the unraveling! Then sometimes, I am reminded of the natural flow of Life - that there are moments where I just want to relish in the Simplicity; the Serenity; the Stillness of myself ~ where the constant unravellings and expansions slow; S L O W; to simply savor in the Beauty of the Experiencing ItSelf, Existing!
I am of my Soul’s Autonomy and at any point I start borrowing from anything outside of that autonomy - it feels unnatural to me; even if it comes under the guise of ‘normal’, it feels unnatural!
My creative journey is naturally free-flowing from Its Innate Autonomy and so It sculpts ItSelf into Visions; into Intimate Thoughts; into Intimate Feelings inside my Heart where there is little ‘planning’ and more in the moment creating - I can feel it as a piece of prose; as a video; as a painting; as a blog post - essentially as a plethora of artistic expressions. It feels like purely creating; give-ing Life to a Piece of my Soul; and from Its free flowing nature - the Outcome is Structured, Naturally.
Essentially, I have ‘no end-goal’ - the beginning and end of the creation is always entirely experienced in the NOW! For even the Vessels of Expressions of my Soul are free in their nature - free to exist as they are - free to harmonize with other vessels; free to become something entirely new; free to breathe fully; free to fully exist as they are!
Essentially, it reminds me of a piece that I wrote,
“In my Will, I step off the Mountain Edge of my Creator;
In my Descent, I exert the Power within my Heart;
In my Landing, I am walking embodiment of my Creation - Will of Creator!
- Walking Divinity!”
Ultimately, I cannot bow or bend to any other Journey than that of Mine. It creates quiet havoc within me … that is not always so quiet, because it goes against the grain of my Absolute. Moreso, I have to honor all and everything that the Absolute has created of Me - to honor and respect my Innate Autonomy; my unique autonomy that has naturally embodied my Life!
I must allow myself to be familiarized with Its Design and Inner Workings; to understand It; to flow with It such that I become part of Its Innate Flow; such that it becomes second nature to me!
As I sit here writing this - I am softly being reminded of the Natural Whole-ness of Self - It feels so simple, you know, a moment like this & yet, it is so evident that all the NOISE of the chaos and havoc of figuring things out; of feeling fragmented for sometime has been audibly SILENCED! I cannot hear it anymore.
Whole-ness feels natural and simple; grounded and centered. I feel like myself while the latter feels of this un-organized and clustered complexity that feels feeble - like juggling all these plates; some are shattered on the ground; plates are still being thrown into the act; quite the chaotic circus act - something that is not who I am; something that is not in harmony with my Life. My Life is equipped with its Innate, Natural Rhythm.
My Prayer is that You allow YourSelf to experience the Simplicity; the Serenity; the Still-ness of Your WholeSelf; of Your Natural Whole-ness; that You simply savor in the Quiet Beauty of Experiencing Your Natural Whole-ness; the Quiet Beauty of Experiencing Your Existence!
Written by - Chelsea Avasa Khan
ORIGINAL JOURNAL ENTRY - 24.02.2024
