Spiritual Rejuvenation/ Soul Revival

My Soul is quite keen on the thrill and adventure of experiencing ItSelf. I would say in my life experience thus far, I have felt ‘the act of surrender to my Soul’ a natural trait of mine. At times, it seemed foolish not too - when you feel the Pure Energy of Source - vast & infinite - one inevitably bows to It; again and again and again. In the very act of surrendering, my Soul experienced ItSelf in a depth of clarities of ItSelf. To surrender was to experience my Truth; was to so purely and vigorously experience my Truth. To surrender was to experience Belonging; the way my Soul belonged to the Infinite. To surrender was to experience the Pure Royalty of the Soul and Source of who I am - this pure pride with which Source experiences its Existence; Pride in creating ItSelf relentlessly; expanding and experiencing its own Expansion; To surrender was to experience Pure Connection; feeling these beautiful energies of Existence co-existing within me; holding me and co-creating with me; To surrender was to experience the High of my Existence; the Light of my Existence - here and now; To surrender was to experience Devotion in its Purest Form - that there were Infinite Ways with which the Absolute experiences its holy and sacred self that honored Its Sanctity; To surrender was to look into the Eyes of the Absolute and allow yourself to be completely taken by that which Poured forth from that Gaze. Ultimately, to surrender was the ultimate act of love to the Absolute Self lived out loud! 

I have experienced so many forms of surrender. In my exhaustion - feeling my Soul so exhausted and so depleted and so tired, I fell to my knees - again and again and again - this time surrendering to the exhaustion of my soul. This was an entirely new level of surrender for me. Again, it made sense to - as regardless of my willingness to surrender - my Soul was depleted. Perhaps, experiencing my Soul exhausted was the first step in the Rejuvenation of my Soul. 

I fell to my knees, again and again and again - or perhaps I simply stayed there till one day - I felt my Soul collapse. I felt my Soul collapse with a smirk on her face, that perhaps She was proud of the battle that She fought; She was proud of Her Fight. I felt my Soul collapse and Her Eyes gazing up at the Night Sky - still with that soft smile on Her Face. Her Eyes closed and I can only assume that She was finally resting. My Soul was finally resting after its long and drawn out period of exhaustion. 

In my rest, I could feel the Heavens rejuvenating my Soul. I could feel it flowing through the vessels of my Spirit. 

In my rest, 

I could feel the Heavens rejuvenating my Soul.

I could feel It flowing through the Vessels of My Spirit.

I could feel the Heavens singing, SINGING the SONGS OF MY SOUL to me

I could feel the Heavens speaking, the TENETS of the ABSOLUTES of MY SOUL to and through me

I could feel the Intimate Presence of The Heavens of My Soul alive inside of me - these gentle and soft lights of grace illuminated inside of me

I could feel that the Heavens never disappeared - that my Soul ventured onto these battlefields but I always had my Home ready and waiting for me to Return; ready and waiting to take me back to my Paradise. 

In the midst of writing this, I want to share a unique way in which my experience unfolds for me. I can see that I always feel the prelude to some clarity unfolding within my day to day experience and it is somewhat of a pattern. Today, I felt for some time, acknowledgement of this long standing feeling - that my spirit, my soul has been elsewhere - and it is obvious that my soul in its exhaustion, has been resting which indicates why I’ve felt its absence. Then later tonight, in the midst of writing this I feel the opposite - I feel the gentle familiarity of my Spirit flowing once more within me. The pattern is that the prelude to the clarity is usually the stark opposite of the nature of the clarity itself - so in essence if I feel the absence of something pinpointed within me, I feel this knowing that later the presence, shall present itself to me, actualize itself. I feel this is a unique way in which I have been experiencing the journey of my life - literally having these mini-journeys in my day to day where I receive that gentle nudge of the trail that I am walking on and then fully experiencing the path itself. 

Anyways, in the simplest way to express how I feel - It feels good to feel like myself again. But innately, I know that it is much more than that because in the aftermath of all these experiences, I must ask myself - What are the new Jewels of Existence that my Soul is now adorned with? These answers will inevitably unfold in the days to come. 

For now, it feels good to feel like myself again!

Written by - Chelsea Avasa Khan