Today, I feel that I want to share more of my ascension journey - my unique and intimate experiences.
I wish there was another word, besides ‘ascension’. Maybe as I write it will come to me. But ascension for me, for my life - has felt somewhat fated; somewhat part of my destiny - and when something feels fated - it can feel like Life has taken its own course till I recognize it as the path carved by my Soul. Till I recognize it as the path carved out intimately by the Hands of my Soul.
Ascension, for these past two years of my life - has felt like expansion; heart wrenching contractions; Soul Liberation; autonomy over my human experience; sovereignty over my human heart; having a microscopic view of myself; of my Life; of LIfe. It’s been a constant state of processing and moving forward - Processsing energies; thoughts; feelings; life; myself; my relationships; my self-expression; my connection. Yes, Connection has been a huge part of my ascension experience - deeply processing my connection to my heart; my connection within my relationships; my connection to Life; my connection to my Soul; my connection to God. Processing … moving forward … steady now … we’re on to the next - that is what the experience feels like.
It’s been a lot - because there is a lot that matters a great deal to me. Sometimes - it has felt like an exhausting fight … but I feel that at times while it has felt that I’ve been fighting against something … I’ve been fighting for all that matters to me. It feels uniquely embedded into me - that I can’t rest for a moment; I can’t let go; every moment matters to me.
Prior to these two years - I feel that my ascension experience was cementing me within the soul and source of who I am; embodying my unique spiritual sovereignty. I feel those experiences to be intimate memories of my life.
These past two years, the experience flowed into cementing me within my human sovereignty; embodying my human autonomy. And guys, I was not ready, I was not prepared, I did not forsee this transition coming or what it would feel like - but there was a defining moment where I knew I entered a completely different realm of energy. At the time, it felt like the spiritual soverignty that I embodied - detached from me. The spiritual strength that I had grown so accustomed to felt like it had just lifted off of me. Obviously, I didn’t reocgnize it at the time, that I was entering into a new phase of my life - I felt that I lost something that I had to find my way back too.
It’s been intense … it’s been a lot. I’ve asked a lot of my heart - everyday you know, just these little moments - feeling a before/ after - where I was asking of my heart to take a leap into something quietly hidden in the unknown. I took those leaps everyday - I feel that when your Heart takes leaps like that everyday - you don’t just feel vulnerable; you morph into this unique expression of vulnerability.
Experienced by - Chelsea Avasa Khan
